WHY I STARTED

I write poems, articles short stories and series.

I want to reach out to all the voiceless throngs in the world and let their voice be heard. Get deep inside your hearts and bring out the true emotions that lie within you.

In here, you will meet different people and different scenarios every Thursday. If it intrigues you so much, like, comment and share the links. But first, FOLLOW the account. Drag your friends along.

Lets get going.
©Rashid Hunt 2017

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an angel to heaven

Well. This was the previous blog. Definitely where I started.
I went back to my roots and I must commend this guy because he made me who I am.

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since the end of the world is nigh
and I would like to go to heaven when I die

i put my head in the air so high

before I bid the world a quick bye

to find an angel who’ll take me to heaven
the search was on and toil

looking for her down to the soils

to ferry my all to heaven

before by death I’m shaven

an angel to heaven
met a woman with eyes so angelic

spoke incoherently and melancholic

got swept away with the heaven’s gravity

so I decided challenging her serenity

coz I thought an angel, to heaven
we went beyond the stars and engaged

never was she ever enraged

so we sailed on the boat ,no run

the intimacy so hot on pan

i had the angel to heaven
suddenly one day in dismay

the weather and clouds so gay

instead of…

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IN MY DREAMS.

Dear Rashid Hunt,

I would not be writing this letter if you stepped up and came for me the last time we met. I hope you are faring on well on the other end of the country. As for my case, life has not been easy without hearing your bass voice and loud childish laughter. Still, the wheel of time keeps on moving, and the pain of sleeping without having a glance at you remains unremitting, inexplicable, and entirely unfathomable.

It may be profoundly weird for you to receive such a script from such a person but then the tranquility, serenity, and brevity that I saw in your eyes sentenced me to a life of yearning. Paulo Coelho says that the eyes are the mirror of the soul. They show the strength of the soul. I know it was night and the whispering sea winds in conjunction with the moon, filtering through the palm trees in the sea-shore were the only witnesses as I beheld the man of my dreams. It was so outrageous and creepy that you did not read between the lines considering that you are a poet with the fourth eye, but then, the best things in life are unseen. Or maybe you were deliberately missing the point, as for a guy who is extremely intelligent as you are, it is easier to decode the painting on the wall. You are my Langdon.

Let’s take a trip down memory. Do you remember the day we ate coconuts on the shore and the weather was so cold that I had to lend you my hoodie even though you insisted that you were okay? That is the day these feelings were conceived. It was about a year ago, right? But guess what, you can’t stop a tide with a broom.
There’s this morbid fancy that is born of long hours spent not talking to you. I will photograph you every time we meet. I will photograph you in this life, in case it is the last time that we might, be exactly how we were before we realized there’s another life. I will photograph you because pictures are a return ticket to a moment otherwise gone.

If all this is wrong, I don’t want to be right Rashid. I know feelings always ruin relationships, but there is something about your eyes. Your eyes pulled me like a black hole. I will have to adjust my speed to be faster than the speed of light so that I may pass through the black hole without being disintegrated. I know the risks are getting higher, and the chance of success are getting poorer, but my eyes are on the price. And, if it doesn’t work out, I will pay the price of burning the candle at both ends.
Haven’t you noticed that I mention your name like it’s a declaration of love? I have been falling deep into the dark abyss of your being. I didn’t like the falling. Falling already is a negative concept, and I am indeed an optimist. I still failed to counter it. Do not hold me as I fall because I want to inexorably fall for you until the end of time. I know you are deeper than what I think.

We may not be on the same boat, but we are certainly on the same ocean. Go fetch your demons and beasts because every beauty needs a beast.
With love,
Abby.
©Rashid Hunt 2019

UNDUGU MENTORSHIP INITIATIVE 02

Joining Undugu Mentorship Initiative was more of calling to me. I had seen it on Facebook and all the mentorship activities that they did. I resisted the urge to join while still in campus. Once I was done with my studies in April, I knew I would have to join. On 20th May 2013, I walked into the Undugu Mentorship Initiative office and after enquiries of how to join and I got registered. That evening, I went for my first session at Mbaraki Girls. I didn’t speak much that day but by the third session, I was already imparting lives. I could do the sessions but I felt I needed to do much more. Come 2014, I went back to school and I became busy and unavailable for the mentorship sessions as I was doing part time studies.

My turn around came in May 2015 when I was among the mentors that went for the leadership and mentorship camp for top achievers in form 4 students of Taita Taveta County. The students were divided into groups and I had my group of 26 students from different schools. I mentored them and by the end of the four-day camp at Taita Taveta University I had bonded with them. I remember asking them the universities they wanted to go to and Yale, Harvard, Massachusetts Institute were some of the answers. These answers challenged me considering the fact that I only wanted to go to KU back when I was in high school. They wrote their names, grades they wanted to score in KCSE and their dream careers in a piece of paper and when we got back to Mombasa, I made sure I prayed for each and every one of them every day. Reminding God to remember them, to help them in their academics and for them to achieve their dreams. I met some of them in camp two in August and by then their names were like a song to me. I promised success cards to them and yes, I did send to all. I am happy they got to pass and go to university. I am a proud ‘mother’ to my mentees. I am happy for the lasting friendships I formed with them.

I have so far mentored more than 100 students who I am humbled that they do remember me and call to share their successes and challenges.

If I could choose to do something all my life, it would definitely be Mentorship. Every day any time.

God bless Undugu Mentorship for the opportunity to serve.

Written by Christine Mwamisha.

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Above is a testimony of one of the beneficiaries and mentors of Undugu Mentorship Initiative. In addition, Undugu Mentorship Initiative will be conducting a fundraising dinner on Saturday 8th December 2018. We will be celebrating 12 years of empowering and mentoring the society towards creating innovative and responsible individuals.

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The fundraising is geared towards getting funds to facilitate the operations of the Community Based Organization.

For more information visit www.undugumentorship.org

Or contact us at 0710498224

or email: info@undugumentorship.org

 

UNDUGU MENTORSHIP INITIATIVE 01

When Undugu Mentorship Initiative visited our church in 2012, I was asked to give a vote of thanks. In those few lines, Undugu Mentorship Initiative chairman, Hon Danson Mwashako Mwakuwona, saw something in me. He invited me to join the organization and together with other mentors they’ve molded me, given me a platform to express myself and guided me through my youth hood.

I have had opportunities to network with people from different walks of life. The opportunity to network has led me to explore my talents, nurture them and grow.

Having met mentors with different occupations, we formed a CBO where I sit at the board hence expanding my leadership skills.

I have Undugu Mentorship Initiative to thank because it has kept me accountable to the society. It has shaped my character and instilled in me the knowledge that I ought to be a good role model to the society.

A saying goes ‘in teaching you will learn.’ Attending various mentor ships programs has enabled me to gather academic skills that also helped me in my study.

Undugu has been a platform that has empowered me with both entrepreneurial and employability skills.

Written by Elizabeth Mbinga

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Above is a testimony of one of the beneficiaries and mentors of Undugu Mentorship Initiative. In addition, Undugu Mentorship Initiative will be conducting a fundraising dinner on Saturday 8th December 2018. We will be celebrating 12 years of empowering and mentoring the society towards creating innovative and responsible individuals.

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The fundraising is geared towards getting funds to facilitate the operations of the Community Based Organization.

For more information visit www.undugumentorship.org

Or contact us at 0710498224

or email: info@undugumentorship.org

THE FACE OF AN ASSASSIN.

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What if we all woke up and found out that which is alien has become familiar and the familiar has been shrouded in mystery? The faces change with passing years; the heart remains constant.” These were the first words out of Tom’s mouth and he could hardly wait to say them. Even in the shadows of the park, the other men could feel his anxiety. The induction hit me hard of course. It was so pertinent that I even felt his zeal. My intuitions led me to feel a fearful premonition of doom in the air.

Samarra, in Colombia, was a street of so much life. Every organism with inclusion of trees in the driveways and parks, snakes on the trees and the concrete seats beneath the trees upon which we sat on, all sang in unison to celebrate life. On this day, the mood was mundane. The trees did not dance. The birds did not chirp. The mundane mood instilled some fear in me. It wasn’t the fear of a snake bite but the fear of something greater than what would kill me.

The street was silent. The colour of the day was outrageous. The sky was grey. Not even the ever-scorching sun was in its usual self. I felt so much heat but the heat was from another sun. The wind did not filter through the trees. I was sweating. “Mary is dead.” That came so strong like a hurricane and swung me round and sideways. Tom says I ran off, hit a tree and lost my consciousness which I doubted but the bruise on my head came out so openly with the assertion. I was stunned why Tom wasn’t crying but I overlooked into his eyes and saw that he was bleeding from the inside. Emotional haemorrhage has claimed more lives in this decade than any other.

Tom’s reaction lifted me to reality and my mood alternated from gut chilling fear to anger. I rose up and asked tom to lead me to where Mary lay. Our walk was very uneventful. The street in front was a pedestrian walkway, with planters and flowers and palms along its center, like a promenade. The place is usually crowded with people strolling but, on this day, there was no one to be found save for some rubble who thought it necessary to loiter on doom’s day or can we say ground-hog day. The afternoon shadows lengthened as we continued to keep up our pace. We hardly talked. Everyone dived deep into his thoughts.

Mary was Tom’s girlfriend who had been 11 weeks pregnant before she decided that she wasn’t going to keep the child. Maybe it didn’t matter to her since she didn’t want to ruin her modelling career, but it mattered a lot to Tom who in other words felt a loss of high IQ sperms. Mary had some prowess in modelling which made her the top model in Cuica University and currently the Miss Cuica University. Mary’s career was fast unfolding. She had a kind of quixotic zeal for her work. The world was awash in anonymous skulls scattered across continents by wars, pogroms, massacres, slaughters and murder. Somehow, she felt she had a genuine mission to turn the wasteland of trivialized death into individual moments of significance, face by face by face. It was a small thing in the grander scheme of things, she knew.

On the other hand, it was no small thing at all to give an identity, a history, and a kind of redemption to what had been only a lost and empty bone before she touched it. Her touch was as magical as it was divine. But, all that was no more.

“Ben, we are here.” It was Mary’s home. The culmination of my anger and frustration coupled up by my inability to imagine life without Mary let loose my eye lids. Tones of tears rolled down as I headed to see the remnants of the vague superstar, the spark who did not give herself a chance to burst into a flame.

Tom and I both played a part in refraining her from aborting the child. We played the reggae song by Nthsenge ‘Abortion is a crime’ on repeat and got her emotional movies and even wrote her articles about how bad we needed her and the child and how the world’s women fertility rate had reduced by half its usual rate. Actually, according to the Kenyan Business daily of Monday 12th November 2018, “there has been a remarkable global decline in the number of children women are having… And there would be profound consequences for societies with ‘more grandparents than grandchildren’… In 1950, women were having an average of 4.7 children in their lifetime. The fertility rate all but halved to 2.4 children per woman by last year… The fall in fertility rate is not down to sperm counts or any of the things that normally come to mind when thinking of fertility. Instead it is being put down to three key factors: Fewer deaths in childhood meaning women have fewer babies, greater access to contraception, and more women in education and work.” Regardless of being exposed to all of these, she remained unshakable. I had to soak in the words of Esther Ingolo that “we were born looking like our parents but we will die looking like our choices.”

I saw her face. The face of the assassin who had the intention of killing one but instead killed two. I saw her so vivid and suddenly my weeping stopped. I felt that it was poetic justice for her to lose herself in claiming to save her career. Her additional reasons were that she didn’t want to be seen carrying a child because the society would judge her. I realized the controlled pandemonium and I noticed all her family members were bitter about the situation since neither Mary’s mother nor her father knew about her pregnancy. Not even her best friend Edith knew about it. I also remembered that I was having a lecture on criminal law from 4 pm which was 20 minutes away.

Tom’s eyes were fixed. He had not set eyes on her since she made the decision three days ago. They had even broken up on that day and Tom came to me so hopeless. I actually did not think that she would do it. I tapped him on the back but his attitude had also changed. His attitude seemed to be, ‘thank you very much for pushing me off the cliff, but now that you have, I am going to be in charge of the falling. And the landing.’ I knew how important that moment was to him. This kind of stuff comes with an emotional price, especially between partners who have shared more than the secrets of state.

I walked out and took a taxi to Paseo de la Reforma, where I got into Polanco. I walked three blocks south of Polanco and six blocks west to Cuica University main gate. The Auditorium was packed. I got in class in time to get the lecture kicking off. I reflected on the impromptu meeting which painted the whole scenario on the wall,Abortion is a crime’. It took me a while to completely get soaked into my chair. I sat there like I had the entire day to sit. That was my best chance of reacquiring my normalcy.

 

©Rashid Hunt 2018

ONE SHOT ONE KILL: CHAPTER SIX

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CHAPTER SIX: ANTS IN MY PANTS

Darkness, the true darkness is not the absence of light. It is the conviction that the light was there and it is no longer there. That the light has to come to fix all that is wrong. That the light always returns, to show us things that are familiar, cars, humans, beds. Things entirely new, Grim reaper, demons. It shows us new possibilities and challenges us to pursue them. This time, the light shone on my hero. Our darkness runs deep and seems to swallow. But these heroes are always here at all times, to remind us that hope is real, that you can see it. All you have to do is look.

With all the brain matter scattered on the faces of the security detail, the commotion built up. I checked out of the Royal Hotel only to meet Cassie again. I felt her eyes penetrate my skin as she took the .50 from me. Sometimes the only way to get into someone’s head is to hit them with a sledge-hammer. I felt the hitting pain. I felt the avalanche of feelings inside her and decided to ignore it. More important things were on bay. I didn’t entirely trust Cassie, it is so disquieting to put all your eggs in one tiny frail of a basket. On the other hand, every blessing ignored is a curse. I played with the odds presented. The Smith and Wesson .38 Special was still with me. I gave it out. The job was over. I got the next taxi on the parkway and left before anything got out of hand. The mission was a success, the escape was marvelous. The execution, lovely. I got to Top Tank Hotel only to get the saddening news on TV that the minister for education was no more.

I got to the room, took a very fast shower and checked out. The airport was on strict, agile and vigilant security. Although I kind of felt the ants in pants I made it out of the four security check ups very safe. Well, you can’t stop what you can’t see of course. It was almost satirical when the cabin crew personnel wished me a safe journey and said I was welcomed again in Mexico.

I was solemn and reflective throughout the flight back. I thought to myself that death makes people a lot more aware of their lives. It was even funnier that on the time of death, one would still struggle hard to keep his life. Do we really want to live forever? What is the fun of living forever. It’s so emotionally tiresome. Our human endurance can not last us a lifetime. The essence of life is that any minute, your breathing may be curtailed. Knowing that death is nigh. This is what gives life a meaning.

My flight back to Belfast was faster that I expected. More relaxing and satisfactory. To lead a satisfactory life is to live with fear being a part of you. Pumping a lot of fear into someone until they snap. Until the fear saturates the mind and you become numb to fear. We call that the point break. The point where your fear becomes the master. It not about going about it for personal gain. It’s about being part of another life. Are we ready for that? Well, the aspect of courage is not that your heart should not quack but nobody else should know it does. Nobody else.

It was all serene in Belfast, everything so normal. Just a normal Saturday. Night had already fallen and I walked in the streets like I owned them. That’s the feeling you get when you know you have nothing that may compromise your movement if in any case you got lifted. Talking about compromise, I got home only to find someone sited on the stairs landing. She was female. Her areola looked familiar. I walked closer. If death was near, I would know. She stood up as I approached. I noticed her eyes were blood-red. The redness was born of long hours spent crying. It was Roisin. She watched me come. The situation was very awkward but I kept my cool. She had a box of pizza with her.

“I don’t remember ordering any pizza today”, I spoke candidly. She didn’t speak.  I took a glance at her and went ahead to open the door. “Can I come in?” she spoke so softly that saying no would feel like breaking her even more.

It was some minutes past 8pm and I was hungry so I thought the pizza would come in handy. We got in and I got to my phone. The first text I got was about a credit transaction made on my account. I smiled. “That must be someone you love” Roisin commented. I was stunned. I hated the fact that I was so transparent to this human. I changed the perspective. “What’s up? You look fucked up.” “My dad has been killed. He has been assassinated today.” Roisin said. “Damn, that’s bad.” I said while comprehending how our killing industry was advancing. “How did it happen?” I added. “He was going to a press conference in Malinalco. It’s in Mexico.” Roisin said between sobs. My pupils dilated. I felt some bitter saliva go down my gut. I hugged her. Gave her the shoulder. It was the first time I ever felt sorry for anyone since I started reasoning. I felt her pain. I felt her weakness.

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©Rashid Hunt 2018

ONE SHOT ONE KILL: CHAPTER FIVE

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CHAPTER FIVE: PERTURBATION

There is a very thin line between love, lust and infatuation. A few can distinguish the difference but most humans cannot. The concepts get even further blurry when there is some disposable pussies and influx of dicks. Pussy niggers get even more confused, especially when one can be absorbed into a clitoris for a whole night. Well, for a feminist, women rule the world but for a chauvinist, dicks are far more paramount. That’s the very reason why the population of women outshines that of men by more than a dozen times. It’s all God’s doing.

So many thoughts were still piling up while I was still comprehending the magnitude of the situation. The phone was still ringing. Then some bright light interrupted me. I raised my head. My gaze moved from the bed to the path that led to the bathroom. It was a glowing female body. It was blinding me. She was entirely naked. I was first amazed, then amused. All my reflexes were put on sudden halt. I was drawn to another world of fantasy. I got stuck in the exotic world. A world full of intense intimacy. I saw her kiss me. I felt her lips. My fantasy was curtailed by the lady coaking a gun. She had already concealed the heaven that I had seen. The phone was still ringing. My first words to her “nice trick.”

She looked down my torso, saw the bulge and gave a crooked smile. She switched the play. “Pick it up” she said, so candidly. She had a Smith and Wesson .38 special on my forehead.

“A blessing in disguise” I commented. “I won’t ask again Robert” now in a firmer voice.

Tequila was still calling. I picked it up and listened. My head was not in the call. I was calculating how I would take the Smith and Wesson .38 special from her. My calculations were perturbed by the familiar voice I heard. “Robert, this line is secure. The bag contains all that you require for tomorrow. Make sure to confirm execution before leaving. Half of the cash is in your account…” “Wait, what?” I interrupted. “You are too fast. Is it my Barret.50 Cal? And what’s with the female eventualities?”. I knew the voice was Abraham’s and he had some important information. “You are too slow. Your favorites are in the bag. And the girl who has a Smith and Wesson .38 special with her is yours for the night. Make the best out of it. However, the Barrett.50 Cal is loaded with one bullet, you only have one shot” He hang up.

I looked up and smiled. She handed back my gun and smiled. I opened the bag and confirmed his utterances. Things were getting harder each minute. She watched me go back and forth. She stood there. Silent. I went for my laptop. I saw the cash. It was there. She also saw it. She was stunned of course and all she could say was “wow.” I closed the laptop so she won’t see more. The door was still open. As I went for the door, she started undressing. She got on the bed. The door was now closed. I turned, looked straight to her eyes and said “Robert.” She giggled. “Well, I could have the pleasure of knowing your name.” I continued. “Oh, c’mon Allan. I know all about you. I came here on my own volition. I’m sorry for the unpleasant welcome. Come to bed, I’ll make it up.” She giggled again. I know it was foolish for me to hesitate but who gets served with gold on a silver platter?

Just like the juxtaposition of choosing stupidity over intelligence, I headed for the washroom to take out the heat. I got out to find dinner. She got us some fast foods. We traded stories as we ate. We talked mostly about the missions I’ve done and how excellent I have been. I told her I had never missed a target. We got so much attached with Cassie and we kicked it. We got hail Mary for like 2 hours and I wasn’t entirely exhausted. She did most of the job. I said most, not all. She was better than me of course, that’s what you get when you dedicate half of your life learning how to kill people and spending the other half killing for a living.

We both slept off and some bad dream woke me up earlier than expected. In that dream, Roisin and I were holding hands. Dancing. It was all night and we were in a cemetery. Dancing on our graves. It was creepy how a delivery girl would come to my head and dance. It was even more creepy when we danced on our graves. I left Cassie on the bed and got to my laptop. I confirmed the attendance of Miguel. I watched his videos more and remembered his moustache and the rings on his left fingers. I got my equipment, everything was in check. No faults.

My map, my calculations were all in my head. No tangible calculations. All of them, the execution, the escape. All of it. There’s no way something was going to be wrong. Cassie woke up to find me cleaning my Smith and Wesson .38 special “want to kill me darling?” she joked. “I want to have you for breakfast.” “Oh, you getting addicted. Your reputation allows you to get more than Cassie. The Kardashians are your level.” What better thing than a woman putting you on a pedestal?

The morning was glorious. Despite all that Cassie and I did, I felt some premonition of doom. My intuitions were telling me that something is entirely off. I scrapped it off since my paranoid self would ruin the moment. And Cassie had a good way of making me think of other human things. I felt relieved. Still, I didn’t go to Mexico to get laid. I woke up. Put my stuff in check. My flight back was at 1730 hours, approximately 2 hours after execution. With all that commotion built up and the time wasted at the 4 stops for security check up before boarding the plane, I wouldn’t have time to pack.

All was set and I left for Malinalco at 1500 hours. Maneuvered through some path ways and got to some restaurant to assess the situation. My bag pack with me. There was so much security and it was so much satirical that the Angel of death was there and they did not recognize him. I turned my gaze only to find Cassie coming. She was damn sexy and I hated her for being a distraction. She knew what I would say so she spoke first. She was brief. “Accommodate the back door.” She left. I knew where the backdoor was but the shot from there was quite risky. A reflection could expose me.

I took the drive way to the end of the cul-de-sac and got to the Royal hotel. The room I had booked yesterday was still unoccupied. It was half past 3 and I was running out of time. I got to the window. It was confusing that the only way to get the view of the back door was if I made the shot from the balcony. It was not that hard considering that the room was at the top floor of a 21 storey building but that would expose me to the scorching sun. I had to make a decision. I took out my Barrett.50 Cal and confirmed the single bullet. I raised it and waited. Targeting both the front and the back door. There were so many cars but I knew his car. 20 minutes past and still his car was not there.

It was past time but I still waited. I couldn’t afford to fail the mission. As I thought how hard I worked and how far I came from, his car came in and the applause from people alerted me. Everyone got out but the sight of Miguel Garcia was still unconfirmed. I moved my Barrett.50 Cal to the back door just in time to see some security detail opening the door. I felt his presence. They moved as a unit but I noticed the silver rings shining on his left fingers. I had to make a calculated guess on where his head would be. I took a deep breath, held my lover tightly and released my baby. The bullet got through the wooden door and someone was down. I confirmed the rings on the fingers of the dead person. Perfect shot. Cassie was right. I smiled.

©Rashid Hunt 2018

THE VOICE

Dearly beloved,

Its my sincere hope that this benedicted piece of paper finds you in your best moods; and that you are fairing on well at the other end of the country. You’ll be flabbergasted, no doubt, to receive this letter but I could not withhold myself from scribbling because of reasons best known to the High Deity. Well, we are just condemned to live in this world, as for the planning and how things would run chronologically, that’s for God.

I know that you might consider my handwriting so pathetic as my desk mate Joe Ngatia does but, that’s how I massage the truth with oils of words. However, for me this letter is a celebration, a final act of love, a quality which, in spite of my studies, in spite of tomorrow’s verdict (which you have no idea about but in the fullness of time you’ll hear about), I do possess in abundance.

Its been a while, hasn’t it? Usually I pour out a few words at this juncture to explain why I’ve not written to you for such an elongated period of time. I could, but I’m not going to. Words of excuse may seem boring at this stage and also a little bit pointless. This is because from being a desk mate I may be an inmate and if the judge is so much considerate, subject me to the chair which will not let me see the struggle again behind bars. At least that was my thought when I pleaded guilty. Promise me that you won’t cry.
I always treasure the day I met you and that was when I realized that the world was new and fishes flew in golden ponds while pigeons swam in sapphire skies. In the love we them shared have I found happiness, a true resting place, a shelter from the many storms that have buffeted my brief life. This may surprise you considering that our love was never consummated and that you may have possibly forgotten me, having not seen me these two years but it is logic that on the night before tomorrow I should write to you and pour out my consolement.

Have you ever been on the eye of a raging hurricane or in the middle of a fierce storm such that the storm destroys everything around it? Well, I was attracted by the storm in your eyes which inexorably pulls me towards you and I never gained the strength to resist.
For as much the reason for writing to you is unknown and the reason for refraining myself was also in absentia, the reason why I wrote to you in the near past was that the zeal and anxiety would grow in you so that every day, you may want me in the threshold of your being. I miss you. Actually, my dream was for us to have an extremely fabulous and outrageous wedding that will culminate to a humongous house on a hill-top in the leafy suburbs of Nairobi. That dream is no more valid.

I am not asking for your understanding nor sympathy, I need neither. What I want is for you to take care of yourself and I must confess that without you, the world would come to a standstill. I know you would weep for having lost the best but the only step is to move on. Don’t settle for a single star while there’s a whole galaxy to be explored.

I love you with all the strength of my tenacious mind. My heart is as light as the daylight which seeps stealthily into our darkened world. My time is up sweetheart. Its dawn. I send you all my love. Be a good girl.
Yours loving,
Chidy

©Rashid Hunt 2018

LIFE IN MY WRITING

My body is numb and weary

For I know not writing on paper

Papers may be strewn by the wind

But my body dies and lives with my writing
I know the prick is painful when I write

So the ink joins me in my fight

I ink my body to my sorrow

So I may get to see another tomorrow
The scent of a companion remains unknown

For I feel dejected, rejected and beaten

You now come by as a  confidant

To stand with me as I fight to my healing

But my pen is still bleeding and pleading 

In my writing I die, in my writing I am born

©Rashid Hunt 2018

ONE SHOT ONE KILL: CHAPTER FOUR


CHAPTER FOUR: TARGET 14

A bullet will kill you in three ways. The first one. One shot on your lower abdomen that penetrates your liver, stomach or a major artery. It takes 10 to 15 minutes before you bleed out. Or you give in to a fatal hemorrhage. The second one. Any where on the chest. The bullet will tumble, lots of bones breaking. Separating. The heart or the arteries get hit. Blood pressure drops to zero. The final one is the kill shot. On your head. The bullet will open up your skull and disturb the serenity of your brain matter. You are dead before your brain can process what happened. Snipers change everything.
I was packing so hurriedly since Abraham Satraken had put me on an emergency flight that was to take off at 0530 hours on 18/7/2015. I barely slept at night. The emergency flight was to and fro. The return ticket was indicated that I would travel back to Belfast on Saturday, 19/7/2015 at 1730 hours. My time in Mexico was so limited. The mission was so abrupt and I felt the pressure. The difficulty. It would normally take me two weeks before execution to get the right spot to take the shot. This would entail calculating air resistance, getting the speed of the bullet and the distance the bullet will travel. All these were dependent on the gun I would use. This was uncertain since I was supposed to be entirely unarmed. I was also supposed to watch the target’s vehicle as so to know which car he will travel in, that is in case of tinted windows. How the car will be packed and from which side of the car he will get out. It was a whole load of calculations that I was supposed to do in 24 hours. It was extremely tiresome. I hated the mission already. But after all, I signed up for it.
I took a taxi through Maori highway. The driver deviated to another route which I later realised it was a shorter route to the airport. The atmosphere at Belfast International Airport was quite lovely and I had an exquisite trip. I watched so many videos of Miguel Garcia. I got familiar with every aspect of his being. I could recognise his smile without seeing his whole body. He had a moustache, protruding forehead and big eyes that would lead you to hate him at first sight.
I finally arrived at Mexico. Not so much jet lag as I had presumed. A taxi was sent specifically for Robert Bangford. I bought the local newspaper on my way to the hotel. News about the Minister of Education attending the press conference at Malinalco hit the front page. I got absorbed. Then I fell asleep.

“Mr Robert. We have arrived.”The driver confidently said.
It was barely two hours! I took out my bag and briefcase which had some clothes and a laptop respectively. I turned round and saw a banner written Toptank Hotel. I was taken to room 59, third floor.

The room was lovely. I thought of bringing a hoe, sometime. After all, all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. But that part would come later. I checked the washroom, closets and under the bed to see if there’s any Assassins planted. I only trust my instincts. I sat on the bed. Took out my laptop. Copied the coordinates of Malinalco Conference Hall on a piece of paper and walked out. Unarmed. I only carried my keys and some cash. A taxi cab pulled up on the driveway and I got in. “Malinalco,” I coughed. And the engine was hot. I marked all landmarks that led to Malinalco from Toptank Hotel. I got to the hall and admired how spacious it was. As the amazing tall buildings impressed me, I wondered why I was supposed to assassinate the Minister of Education and not the damn President. Killing prominent people was quite fun. Drawing their lives was very exciting. They didn’t know when it was coming. How and when the lights will go out. I will know if someone is coming to take my life. And when they come, I will take theirs first. Even the angel of death knows, that’s why he doesn’t come. Or maybe I am the angel of death. Maybe. But I fear death. I fear death not because oblivion might lie beyond it but oblivion might not.

I got familiar with the neighborhood. Got in a cyber cafe to get a Google map of the location. I drew the plan, the roads, the landmarks. All the relevant information. I couldn’t establish for sure where it would be the most approximate position to make the execution because the guns and my bike were still uncertain. I walked on the subways, making turns in driveways and parkways. I programmed the routes in me like I was a native. It takes a great deal of ingenuity.
I always love night missions because the camouflage is easier. With here, so many people will flock the streets. This makes the security agile. The sun may also bring inconveniences for a reflection may be created. I stayed in Malinalco for the rest of the midmorning, through the afternoon and down to the dawn. I wanted to see the sun set. Having covered all aspects, I headed back to Toptank Hotel. As I alighted from the cab, I noticed the lights in my room were on. I checked in and took the stairs to the third floor. I was even more confused when I saw the door to room 59 slightly open. I pushed it wide and took cover. I waited. Nothing. I crouched and peeped. No one. Behind the door. No one. I saw a big bag on the bed. Beside it, a phone. Then I heard movements in the washroom. The shower was on. Before I made a step to the washroom, the phone rang. The caller’s name, Tequila.

© Rashid Hunt 2018

ONE SHOT ONE KILL: CHAPTER THREE


CHAPTER THREE: THE RENDEZVOUS

Time has been more or less like every physical entity. It is just that it has always been vaunted curative powers, since time immemorial. I always fed on it. I always embraced patience. I always waited. The correct time to strike was not to be speculated but established. That is better than blowing everything up. It saves on energy and also on time. Just as the words of a certain philosopher which go as “Be sure to put your legs in the right place, then stand firm.”

All these thoughts of time and optimism saturated my brain and a man who came from behind, taking my Smith and Wesson .38 special brought me back to reality. The other guy was still pointing the gun towards me. My heart was drilling through my ribs. I felt nauseated. For the first time in my life, I was afraid. I had to put my hands in my pockets as so these bozos won’t see them shaking. What gave me hope was that these guys were not cops. If they were, where are their badges? What bugged me the most is how they knew my name. Allan Cork McCummings was a fictional name. After the real me died.
The guy sank in my chair. He was rolling my Smith and Wesson .38 special in his finger as he made himself comfortable. He spoke. “Great job you did Marcus, I’ll take it from here.” No sooner had Marcus put down his aim than I turned him round and skillfully took his gun out of him. My left hand firmly on his neck and my right hand pointing the gun on his head.
“Wow Allan. Relax. We are here to talk.” The other guy spoke so candidly. He was still rolling my Smith and Wesson .38 special.

“Start talking before I blow his brains.” I said.

“Don’t do something you will regret.”

“No one tells me what to do.”

“I am Abraham Satraken.”

“What?”
Abraham Satraken was the owner of the armoury where I ordered my guns and ammunition. We never met because the order is done online and the deliveries always go to a different address. Then I could pick up my parcel later on. Payment was made before deliveries. By bank.

” I know all my clients and since you’ve been a consistent buyer, I did a speed check on you. I have to know everyone so no one can turn on me. You have a great deal of skill, I’m impressed. ” He spoke with a face life had chewed on.

“What do you want?” I asked condescendingly. Holding Marcus even more firm.

“I have a proposal for you. I give you assignments. Fire arms on discount. Most of them will be international missions.”

“I work alone.”

“If you don’t want to be a part of it, you can do only this one. It has to be executed. It has to be perfect. It has to be you. I’m not begging, I’m insisting.”

“My pay?”

“Goes through me. There’s a good potato in it cork sucker.”

“I’ll sleep on it.” I said. Face expressionless.

“Great talking to you Allan Cork McCummings.”

“Next time. Get your formalities right. Its Allan Wolf.” I said as I let Marcus loose.

“There will never be a next time Allan Wolf. Give me your answer before today midnight. Anchor is up by midnight, don’t be late.” Abraham Satraken said while handing me my Smith and Wesson .38 special. He opened the door.

“Oh! Look who’s hungry. Pizza is here.” Abraham Satraken added.
Marcus snatched his gun and followed Abraham Satraken. I put my Smith and Wesson .38 special at the back and waited. For the pizza ofcourse. I had even forgotten that I had ordered pizza from Dick’s. Dick’s always delivered their pizzas at my doorstep every Thursday and Sunday night. At exactly 17 minutes to 10 o’clock.
Apart from gas, pizza was the only thing I paid by cash. The delivery girl always handed the pizza, took the cash and left. Today she spoke.

“Those guys have colder eyes than yours.”

I was silent. Still wondering if I was so transparent.

“You are the only one out of town who orders pizza at night.” I was silent.

“Your wall clock is 6 hours and 11 minutes ahead. Creepy.” That captured me.

“Hey observant woman, you making me uncomfortable.” Already feeling my gun. Prepared.

“Roisin,” she said. “Although it’s written on my tag.”

“Jack,” I lied. “Your cash is on the table.”

“Have a good night Jack.”

“Great night to you.” I faked a smile. I watched her drive away. I closed the door. I put off the lights.

I sat down and reflected on the day. It was fucked up. I had no ride. The thoughts of Abraham Satraken pissing on my face and Roisin shitting even more were disturbing. I knew death if I saw it. It wasn’t nigh. I kinda liked Roisin because she had been nice. She was beautiful and had a fine posterior to match with. For Abraham Satraken, it was more than blackmail. He was desperate and I was the only hitman who could deliver. If I ordered ammunition that day, someone had to die. That was clear and evident. 13 missions all successful. 13 and counting because I just got started. I looked at my wall clock and did the maths. It was 17 minutes to midnight. I took my laptop and typed an email to ASSAD, Abraham Satraken Supplies of Armoury and Deliveries. ‘I’m in.’ Almost immediately, a reply came.

Agent: Anonymous

Mission: Terminate the target

Date: 19/7/2015

Time: 1540 – 1550 hours

Target: Miguel Garcia

Mexico Minister of Education

45 years of age

Location: Malinalco at a press conference.
Hint: silver rings on fingers of left hand.
If you accept the assignment. Send ACCEPT.

Thank you.
©Rashid Hunt 2017

ONE SHOT ONE KILL: CHAPTER TWO

CHAPTER TWO: 17 SECONDS OF DEATH
One evening when the sun was at its most beautiful state, I lay still and quiet at my required position. With my Barrett. 50 Cal in front of me, already in position. Relaxed. I also carried a Smith and Wesson .38 Special just in case some uncertainties came by. The orders I got before the mission were so clear. Rules were upheld. No names. Half of the payment made before the mission and completed when the mission was confirmed successful. Payments made by bank. My bank account was untraceable. Cash flows and activities erased every 17 seconds. The holder unknown. It was like it never existed, but it was there.
“Target heading your way. Do you copy?”

I hurriedly put aside the bread and packet of milk that I was eating while crouching in the deserted house. Some of the milk poured, but I didn’t care. The job was worth a pool of diamonds. The procession moved so slowly to their desired destination. Wherever the were heading. I didn’t care. All I knew was that someone in the inside was coordinating.

“Copy that.” I replied. I knew which car he will be driven in and at what position he would be sitted at. In the car. Although the windows were tinted. All closed. I could still see the target. It was like I had a form of power embedded in me. More of a strategist than sheer luck, the rays of the sun were alongside my aim. No reflection was created.
I was very sure the coordinator, who was female, didn’t know me. I always put my identity confidential. I worked alone. The tales of partners turning on each other and blowing each other’s brain matter off was not pleasing.
She started the count down from 17 down. When she was 5, she became quiet. I counted by heart. My finger firmly on the trigger of my lover. I released one of my babies and the perfect shot got the eye of the target and the bullet went through and out on the other side of the head. Bam! No air resistance. Perfect shot.

The fracas, noises, screams and uncontrolled pandemonium gave a chance for me to gather my equipment, put it in place, get on my motorbike. Ride away. No sooner had I fled than a black car was on my ass. I could see it from the side mirror how hard it was tailing me. Fuck! The nigger had security, agile security. They were on the verge of getting on my ass when I took out my Smith and Wesson .38 special and shot the driver dead. My aiming was stunningly accurate. It was exquisite. One shot one kill. Take the shot or lose the chance. Well I shot at them because I could not afford getting caught. I did something wrong. I carried the murder weapon. We were always supposed to leave it. That is one of the sniper rules. But I loved the Barrett. 50 Cal. This mind-blowing single shot, bolt-action weapon comes with a maximum fire range of 2600 metres. And, it can shoot through a wall! I called it my lover, I didn’t part with it. I even slept with it. It was this emotions that always made an assassin vulnerable.
The pursuers stopped, got out and shot at me, intently wanting to draw the life out of me. All this time I moved towards the suburbs, I pulled them to where there was less attention so my escape could be easier. Strategic retreat. I got into the Catullus Woods heading North. I dumped the motorbike in a hole, cleaned, no prints. Took a North Eastern bearing. I knew where it led.
It took me 13 kilometers to get to the Maori highway that led to my home which was situated at the outskirts of town. I got home just in time to get the 9 o’clock news. What hit the breaking news was the assassination of the tycoon. His picture was on the screen and a poem written under it. I felt the poem was familiar. I recalled it was a requiem by Robert Luis Stevenson. It apparently was my favourite.
As I finished reading the poem, a text popped up in my cell phone.

“$375,000 deposited for the account number 06678149256 at 9.17 pm on 17/7/2015.”

I heaved a sigh of relief. Before I sat down, I heard a loud knock on the front door. I thought of opening the back door to go check out the front door from the outside, it was safer. With my Smith and Wesson .38 special in my hand. No sooner had I opened the back door than a gun was raised and the muzzle on my forehead. My hands were up without being told to raise them. The gun did not freak me out. What freaked me out was what the one who bore the gun said.

“Allan Cork McCummings you are under arrest for the attempted murder of AbdulMutwalib Sagaf. What you say may and will be used against you in the court of law.”

©Rashid Hunt 2017

ONE SHOT ONE KILL: CHAPTER ONE

CHAPTER ONE: THE GENESIS

It was a lie. It always has been. It was always there, staring, telling me that here is not where you belong. It was a life of lie. Living a life of another person. There was this constant voice at the back of my tenacious mind that was urging me towards a completely different life. A life that I lived before I died and reincarnated or maybe resurrected – because I maintained my body – to what I had become.
Nine years before meeting the Chief of the MESS, Middle Eastern Sniper Syndicate whom I met six weeks ago, I reported at the gates of Ghazi Baida Terrorist Group. I just had a notion that Ghazi Baida is where I would take all my bitterness after a gang slaughtered my parents, and assassinated my younger sister – who was taken out – on her way home from school. The police found her body with a single bullet hole through her head. That meant that one shot was fired and it must have been close and accurate enough for the bullet to go through. No one blamed me for not following suit but the culprits always left one person alive, so that he would tell the tale. That is where they messed up.
Ghazi Baida was a quiet place and I will not put out so much information about it because I was put under an oath not to take out any information. Although they closed down 6 months after I left. No names were involved just badges with a unique mix of letters and numbers. My badge read, A230385. I underwent a full 7 years course on advanced assassination and learnt how to get away after a murder. With all that training, no one in the Murder School had a heart, not even the commanders who pushed us to and fro. 7 years of sleeping 4 hours every night, 17 minutes of eating which were broken down as 4 minutes for breakfast, 8 minutes for lunch and 5 minutes for the evening meal, and the rest of the day was spent handling guns and following orders. Only some few breaks and weekends were not acknowledged. Maybe I was doing all that because of revenge but my spirit kept me going. Many of my fellows died within the initial starting months because of a lot of hard labour ,but, I kept on.
The memories of my dead family kept torturing me but my will made it easier for me to grasp. I always remembered the triggers and the critical analysis one would do before striking, I captivated, I absorbed, I was assimilated. I found studying of the human body in the Sniper unit ,at the first year of the admission, very interesting. I could spend my hours set aside for sleep to read. I knew that with all that knowledge, I would get an affluent human who would hire me as a hit man. I made a choice to kill, not for pleasure, but for money. And I promised myself that I would put to justice those who killed my family since justice was not prevailing and the legal system was already corrupt. My promise was set and there was no way I was going to betray myself. But first, I had to learn how to kill and not get killed. I made a choice. I died, not on the outside. In the inside.
© Rashid Hunt 2017

ONE SHOT ONE KILL: PROLOGUE

PROLOGUE
She jumped out of the bed and ran wild to pick up the ringing phone. I lay there like a dead vegetable, startled, saying nothing. Nothing was running through my mind. You would mistake me for a zombie. The best I could do was breathe and wait for the next step. Roisin always liked to dance and sing to my ringtone word by word. I found that childish but she enjoyed it and I had no right to rob her off her happiness. She would sing until it stopped ringing, then hand me the phone the second time it rang.
Roisin loved my Ringtones. It was Adele who always sang. On this day, Adele and Roisin sang :
This is the end

Hold your breathe and count to ten

Feel the earth move, and then

Hear my heart burst, again

For this is the end

I’ve drowned and dreamt this moment

So overdue I owe them

Swept away, I’m stolen

 

Let the sky fall

When it crumbles

We will stand tall

Face it all ,together

Let the sky fall

When it crumbles

We will stand tall

Face it all, together

At Skyfall

This day, she sang, glanced at my phone, kept quiet then passed the phone. The caller’s name read Witch. I didn’t want to ruin our second year anniversary with Roisin. I fucking put it clear to the bozos that I won’t take any assignments. Not until I’m done celebrating with my woman.

With the type of vocation that I had, I was not supposed to have any strong links to people or even fall in love, but then love comes, and there we were.

Roisin did not know what kind of job I was doing. All I had to do was tell her that it was safer that she didn’t know, and just like magic, she understood. At least that was one thing I could count on her.
The weird name made her angry and the fact that I didn’t pick up made her angrier. I didn’t want to ruin the moment of course, so I soothed her with oils of words.
Things took a turn when the Chief himself sent a text and it popped up. It read:

Allan, our efforts are futile without your input. Get your ass in the fucking conference room, it’s the only shot we got. Renege on me at the expense of your girl.

If the Chief sent a text, in bold, then it should have been something that none of the other monkeys working round the clock could do. Fuck, things were getting out of hand.
©Rashid Hunt 2017

THE GAME

Let me tell you about a game I play

Where I close my eyes and fade away

I float away to a special place

Beyond the stars, moon and space
In this place, you see

There are only two people, just you and me

In this place, all is right

Nothing but love and we never fight
No courts, no cells, none of that madness

And neither is there sadness

No rules to follow, no laws to break

No one to hold us or separate
No one to tell us we can’t kiss or touch

I don’t tell you I love, I show you how much
But eventually the game must end

My eyes must open and reality to descend

But someday I’m not sure when

I’ll close my eyes and play the game again

©Rashid Hunt 2017

DUST ON THE SEA

My tears did not stop pouring, it was like I had acquired a tender of filling a swimming pool at the middle of a desert and the best I could do was cry. The note that Arthur Clarke had written was submerged in my tears and my convulsions made my hands weaker; I could hold nothing anymore. Batra, who was my most loyal companion sat on my laps, he joined my weeping although no tears came out of his face. He was a beautiful cat. Our meeting was very peculiar and I was more of a master to him, because I understood his anger, his hunger, his laughter, his exhaustion, every bit of his feelings. Arthur loved him too because I starved with him and when it came to celebrating my affluence, he was a part of it. He knew that I was weeping to take out all the bitterness that laid inside and he didn’t mind the fact that I was weeping like I was to baptise him with tears. Was it suicide? Did he know his fate? I wasn’t sure of all this but one thing I was sure of is that the day when Arthur Clarke died, something died inside me. I don’t know what it is, but I will find out in the soonest of time.

I had put Arthur Clarke on a pedestal, it  was so strong that I even thought he was immortal. Actually, he knew that it was all risky but he went on with it. I lay in painful confusion.
We had been seeing the dust on the sea – which was something unprecedented – since the previous month. Our own curiosity led us to go and find out what caused the dust to float and not dissolve in the sea, or even sink. Was it really dust? Was it natural? Did it have effects or not?
To reach the dust on the sea, we were supposed to swim across some planktons, then swim on top of a natural depression, then get to the dust. That was close to a kilometer and a half from the sea-shore.
On that day, the tides were low. So we manoeuvred  through the water with ease. The dust consisted of a thick circular layer of sand. It was purely sand with a little impurities. It smelled of lilacs. This floating suspension was just out of this world. As we filled our bottles with the mixture, I started to feel my feet being pulled. My ingenuity led me to deduce that the distortion of the composition created a vacuum. Then suddenly, the mixture started to sink, were also sinking. Arthur Clarke gave me a mighty push. He strategically did that when a tide was coming so I was moved further by two metres away.  Under the water, I saw the circular motion of water and Arthur was hopeless in its might. He was being pulled to the centre, farthest below where I noticed a big dark hole.
The distance to the sea floor was unfathomable. Well you see, time of death is more elusive than most people think. Death by asphyxiation takes only several minutes. That’s a very long time when every cell in your body is screaming for air. I made a decision and swam back to the shore. I had no mixture with me. I had lost everything and no body would believe what I had seen. Trauma hit me hard and for once in my life I regretted doing something. I then woke up and vowed to myself that I will accomplish all that Arthur Clarke had started so he would be proud of me wherever he is. I promised to stay true to my oath.
I picked my weary self up and put Batra aside. I picked up the wet note that Arthur had left in my book the previous night. I started rereading it with controlled emotions.  I read it out loud this time so that Batra could listen, may be he could understand. I read like my whole life depended on the reading. I read it without sighing. The note read:
Robby Palmer

Let me sleep for my soul is intoxicated by love and let me rest for my spirit has had its bounty of days and nights. Let me embrace the arms of slumber for my open eyes are tired.

Dry your tears  my friend and raise your head as flowers raise their crowns to greet the dawn.

Do not sing of the past for the song will rob you off all these life’s pleasures. Sing of the future with smiling lips even though your voice is reduced to silence and do what I wasn’t able to achieve, that is when my soul will be at peace.

Disturb not the air’s tranquility with chanting and requiems but let your heart sing with me the song of the future. Talk not of my departure with sighs in your heart. Close your eyes and you will see me forevermore.

Here, I can hear music of heaven in exact harmony with my spirits desires. I am cloaked in full whiteness, I am in comfort; I am at peace. I have gone to rest upon the wind but in due time, I will be born again of another woman.

 

Arthur Clarke

 

© Rashid Hunt 2017

SHE’S A BIRD, SHE’S A PLANE

Intelligence is an intoxicating quality in a woman

For it is absent in most men

I concentrated for months on end

To feel how she thinks

For it takes me to heaven
Its is human nature to believe;-

In something greater than you

I studied her demons, her religion

But retained my own

Although they sang to me
You are  a teddy bear in the streets

A warrior in the sheets

She sang this melody in my dreams

I sank in the delicious tunes

The bird effect
I don’t believe in angels but;-

I believe in planes

She is not from heaven

She might take us  there

The plane effect
It is a great disappointment

That the good ones are always taken

She knows I can give a liver for her

For I massage the truth

With the oils of words
©Rashid Hunt 2017

LOST?

Great wisdom

Truthdrug

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HOLD ON, PAIN ENDS

You pick my calls no more

You unusually use the other door

You want to let go

The grass is not greener, I know

I have been there before

So who picks up the pieces

Every time two fools collide?

Speak up and I will listen

Listen to the tune of your heart

Find the focal point

Concentrate on the beat

Measure the varied tensions

Decide to weep

Or dance

You strike sharp with bitter actions

I put a blind eye, I’m punctual

You hang out with me no more

The war has descend

One day, all this will end

What happens when an unstoppable force

Meets with an unmovable object?

Actions speak louder but I’m deaf

We are best friends to death

I’m keeping my own side of the oath

I will dwell in this boat

Even if it sinks, I won’t float

Because it is better to die on the gates of freedom

Than to rot in the shackles of servitude

©Rashid Hunt 2017

DEATH IS A WOMAN

The first time you are selling a gun is like the first time you are having sex. You don’t know what you are doing, but you just enjoy doing it. And just like sex, you need words and phrases to let you get through without too much friction. Again, without too much friction. They make you look professional, like a guru. Phrases like:

Hey, in my business, I believe in the philosophy of ‘one shot one kill’. I always hit my target, or,

Anchor is up by mid-day, don’t be late,or,

A missile here, a chopper there, business is booming.
It is true that words are a measure of intelligence.

Also, in this business, you have to be brave, intelligent, creative and lucky, all at the same time. So it calls for huge loads of ingenuity.

It was in the business of Ethan for the last fortnight to sell guns to expand his father’s business who had been ruthlessly gunned down – by the Black Scorpions  – three weeks ago. Already, Ethan had escaped death twice and the last scenario nearly got him walking out of the business. He had to jump through the washroom window, land on his posterior and limp home. He knew he had to be resilient and let the river water to flow without much turbulence. After all, it is the challenges that make victory sweeter.
Today, the sun looks dull in Northern Belfast and there isn’t many people walking in the drive ways. May be it is  because the number of the uniformed men was increased, or may be people have gone to church since it is a Sunday. He thinks. He does not believe in the existence of a superior being and there’s so much he could do on a Sunday morning. So much. He feels  disoriented. The fact that his girlfriend is  unfaithful is eating him up.

Ethan’s intuition leads him to close his secret gun store – which he pays for every week to the police to let him have it – and walks three blocks down right, takes a right corner along Lincoln street and goes ten blocks to the Mexican pub. It smells of cigarettes there and he loves it. He asks for a bottle of Black Martini and gets a table. The music goes beyond the sound proof walls, through his legs and into his drink, but that is none of his business. Half way through the bottle, a lady comes and offers him a cigar. They start trading stories and Ethan realises that the lady is Mexican. ‘I’m gonna get some fresh air,’ Ethan shouts over the loud music. He walks through the groups of people, there was no one in the dance floor, every one was dancing where their drinks are, with their heads. Ethan had to just touch a person’s shoulder and they would melt away to create space.

The fresh air hits his face. He feels relieved. He leans on the wall and closes his eyes. ‘Weed?’ Velma asks with youthful enthusiasm. ‘You freaked me out,’ Ethan complained. He had just known her for two hours. Velma takes his hand and leads him down the driveway in  Lincoln street and down left to some darker street considered safer to smoke Marijuana and avoid getting lifted.

Velma lights the joint, places it on Ethan’s mouth for him to get the virgin puffs. Ethan inhales, lets the air burn his lungs for some seconds, exhales, then smiles. Velma pushes Ethan to the wall, gets her face so close to his that they are almost kissing, then whispers, ‘blow job?’ Ethan had his first blow job at fourteen so he didn’t mind. The intimacy made him close his eyes. The feeling of being high mixed with the intimacy led him to cloud 56. He was literally on air. Then he saw the tatoo of Black Scorpions on Velma’s neck. Just like in sky diving, if your parachute fails to deploy, you literally have  the rest of your life to try to fix it.
Ethan takes out his gun but he already lost his stamina so he points it at her like he is handing her a gift. She takes it and embraces a long and carefully withdrawn kiss on his lips. A single shot fired on Velma’s upper arm from an unknown location changes the situation. Now both of them are targets. Velma has to complete her mission though. Without a thought, Ethan bends down to his shoes and as he stands up, Velma falls down with a dagger sticking out of her left eye. His run is lazy, unplanned and slow. He knows the sniper is in pursuit and in the soonest of time he’d be meeting his demise. He manuevers through the subways, he doesn’t  know where he is going but he keeps low. He  spots a metal dust bin. He jumps in and closes the lid. The world is not sweet and fresh inside there, but at least, death wouldn’t find him. He passes out.

©Rashid Hunt 2017

FOCUS

The heights of great men reached and kept

Were not got by sudden flight

But they as their companions slept

Were toiling upwards in the night
The toilings, the findings, the success

Destructions flooding in excess

Tackling the vicissitudes that come one’s way

Greatness becomes inevitable come what may
Focus is the master-key to all these padlocks

Too many flashy lights along the paths

But a dying star still shines in havoc

To attract the gullible on earth
Since man to man has been unjust

Show me the man I can trust

I have trusted many to my sorrow

So for credit my friend come tomorrow
©Rashid Hunt 2017

LOVE AND LIFE

It all started when I saved his life a month ago. I was from the dojo, still in my training gear. He screamed for help. The dagger that this thug was holding must have freaked him out. His eyes profoundly saw his demise. I got close enough to attack and far enough for a counter attack. One thing was for sure, this vagabond of a thug will not see the front kick coming so he is subject to inguinal injuries. I was right, the guy went down and he passed out with a falling kick.

“Thank you Mrs,” he said it so sincerely.

“What are you doing in West Belfast weirdo?” I rhetorically asked while going about my way. So this guy holds my hand and seductively starts speaking like those Alejandros. It took me by surprise and he used the occasion to pour out the best lines he’s had. He must have rehearsed this a million times. What monumental courage!

 “I need you in my life, my girlfriend left,”

“Get the fucker back!” I shrugged off my hand, face emotionless.

“She walked out on me.”

“Well, you got your hands, they probably won’t walk out on you.” I surprisingly enjoyed the moment, or was it that I was getting webbed by his utterances?

We walked away before the oblivious thug would wake up. We had a great conversation like we had known each other for decades. His confessions were so impressive.

” I’ve been seeing you around, I like your independence, your strength and most of all, your ass. In this whole town, you are the only woman who gives me a hard on. You are hot like a thousand fires.”

I fucking blushed. Something I rarely do. I believed him. I knew I had a horde of admirers which I paid no attention to but this bozo was a different kettle of fish altogether. He got straight to the point,never beating around, never contradicting himself.

The gurus of love said, you know who you love but you don’t know who loves you. I grew fond of him and all the walls I built so he wouldn’t come in were broken. He now owned me.

Yesterday as I went home from the dojo, I didn’t see him. I thought he would be busy , ‘but he always waits here’, I argued loudly and the passers-by although astonished said nothing. It was my birthday and I expected a surprise. I got to my house and the door was slightly open.  I pushed it and his body lay flat on the floor,  blood and brain matter scattered in the room. I screamed in silence.

In his folded hand was a note, it was perfumed. The contents of the note were:

Jasmine

This love that I feel for you

How it came to be I have no clue

I feel like it’s a fantasy yet I know its true

Because every time I see you

My body heats up like I have a fever or a flu

I love you with all the strength of my tenacious mind. I want us to have an extremely fabulous and outrageous wedding that will culminate to a humongous house on a hill-top in the leafy suburbs of Belfast.

Happy birthday sweetheart.

Always with love

Reinhard.
I carefully folded back the note and took a pen and papers and headed to the cliff by the sea. I scribbled some writing and strewn the papers with bitter futility so people would find them, trace the events as they unfolded and probably erect a monument to commemorate our lost love and life.

I was on the verge of jumping into the abyss of the other life when I heard a voice from behind. Wesley stood right behind me. A candid smile, warm and sincere. I ran to him and he embraced me back to life.

“He was not the person you knew sister, there’s more than what meets the eye.”

I poured all the tears that I held inside me and I felt relieved when every tear drop got to the ground. I felt better. I wept like I was to baptise my brother with tears. I only stopped when my brother sang a song whose meaning I couldn’t comprehend.

He sang

Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle down the rails

All that fun, to kill someone and end up in jail.

©Rashid Hunt 2017

THE MIND OF A PHILOSOPHER

Last weekend as I walked down the Crumlin road to the Fort that is situated at the sea-shore, I got strapped inside my head. It was twenty minutes past 11pm and I was hurrying so that I could get all that the midnight sea breeze would say today.

Upon reaching the shore, I admired the moon and felt the texture of the cold sand before getting to my favourite spot. The shore was deserted, which was obvious and the moon filtered through the palm trees as so it could also get involved in my soliloquy.
I started wondering why people would fall in love. I once said to an audience that love has a killing reputation and I would say that a million times. When you venture into something that you know so little of, and, something that keeps on changing at every sunrise, it becomes so hard to control it. That is when it starts devouring you from the inside.

The breeze broke the eloquence of silence and said,” love you see, is the one force that can not  be explained; can not be broken down into a chemical process. Which is the beacon that guides us back home when no one is there, and the light that illuminates our lives. Its absence robs us of all pleasure, of our capacity for joy. It makes our nights darker and our days gloomier. But when we find love, no matter how long, how sad or how terrible, we cling to it. It feeds on us, and we feed on it not bearing that love is an illusion and we are filling our stomached-hearts with something we know little of. Still, if a bird has decided to step on a rope, it should have been prepared to dance with it. The aftermath becomes too much to bear and it leaves the victims with nothing to hold on to which subjects them to be the most wretched of people. Also, love and hate are just like day and night, the difference is in our vision.”



A voice within me said, when you are sorrowful, look again in your heart and you shall find that you are weeping for that which was once your delight. And the same voice, now with a bigger amplitude said, look at the dawn giving birth to the sun. So salvation comes like this light that creeps stealthily into our darkened world.

I picked myself up and said to the breeze, ” until we meet again friend.”

©Rashid Hunt 2017

VICTIMS OF THE NIGHT

 


A year ago, I would have challenged the inexorability of time and would have proved that time is just like any physical entity. However, time has been vaunted curative powers since time immemorial. The woman who proved its curability said, there are only two ways to deal with pain, either bear it until time heals for time is a master healer of even the deepest wounds or, commit suicide, but the latter is an abomination.

The syndicate has been working round the clock for my arse. Its been two years but all their efforts were met with bitter futility. I walked out on them and since they had put me on a pedestal, I became invincible. No, Immortal is the word. I’ve escaped death 49 times and all the credit goes to my intuitions. I fear death not because oblivion might lie beyond it but oblivion might not.

There’s this morbid fancy born of long hours spent not talking to Roisin. I met Roisin a fortnight ago but our rendezvous today was to be magical. At least that’s what she said. I agreed to meet her by the Muldoon Avenue road side. Why the roadside? Why 7pm? A fearful premonition of doom was in the air. She wore a grey blouse, blue pair of trousers and new sneakers and added on top a cologned anorak. We traded anoraks and traded stories and once I cracked a track by Ed Sheeran, Thinking out aloud.

When your legs don’t walk like they used to before

And I can’t sweep you off of your feet

Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love

Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks

And baby I,will, be loving you till we seventy

And baby my, heart, could still fall as hard as twenty-three

And I’m thinking about how

People fall in love in mysterious ways…
She comes in and we sing all through.
The roadside gets so deserted as we are headed for the cul-de-sac. A Car passes by once in a while, dropping its flashlights on us, she would search for my eyes. I found hers, deep, black and fierce. Her laughter was so hollow. It was like she was struggling with something I had little knowledge of.
The light in the condominiums were off. I feigned a cough and blamed the cold for being unfair so I set to bid Roisin farewell. She held me tight and demanded my presence. All the people who fell in love have died. Love has a killing reputation. I thought about Jack and Rose in the Titanic, Romeo and Juliet and now me.
I heard her mumbling an ineffable word, then she got heavy, then I noticed heat on my hands. A car passed by and I saw blood clinging on my skin. Now I remembered why we exchanged our anoraks and why she held me so tight. A pop up text showed up in her phone and not in so many words, the sender said,

No, but I am their friend

Although I live in the land of the North

When they saw the witch of the East dead

The dukelings sent to me a swift note

And I came at once

I am the witch of the North.



Under the cover of darkness, I charged into the house at the end of the drive way, it had been unoccupied for more than sixteen months. I hit a stone and was close to losing my balance, and I careered through the kitchen and put my shoulder into the chipboard masking the window and I climbed out landing on the garden.
There were shouts in the street, squealed shouts in a recognisable accent. I went over the garden fence and stepped on the O’Brien parkway and I ran till the wind sobbed in my throat. And the shouts were far away, and behind me.

©Rashid Hunt 2017

SOLACE IN THE WILDERNESS

Yesterday, I drew myself from the noisome throngs and proceeded into the field until I reached a place upon which a stone lay facing the setting sun. Before  I could take the seat offered to me by the generous nature, I looked back, and the city appeared with its magnificent mosques and stately residents and splendid shops. I commenced analysing man’s mission. He cries when he is brought forth into this world because of the constant peace in the spiritual world which contradicts the struggles, sorrows and hardships in the other, of which, he lives in it as though eternity would find him there.

I then looked across the field to meet birds going home. The trees, kestrels and the air all in harmony. Extreme utopia. The place was as divine as it was  exotic, as though it existed outside this turmoil world. At some point, I envied the kestrel’s life and thought to myself that even a widowed kestrel would go out at dawn and dusk was sure to meet it with contentment and satisfaction.
At last I sat down to bid the sun farewell. I looked towards the clouds mingled with the sun’s longest and most beautiful golden rays which took my gaze to a tree upon which a word was inscribed, ‘Batra’. I hope it meant ‘solace’. Here is where history is lived. Where the mind awakens. I felt the heartbeat of the place. Night fell and my sight was cloaked. If it was not for the snow, I could stay there and wait for death to meet me. What better place to die than in heaven? And I heard a voice within me saying, “There’s eternal life in heaven”.
©Rashid Hunt 2017